~ReCent Of mI~
Thursday, February 23rd, 2006Ops…it been quite sometime I did not update my blog. Now I’m back :p hm..where should I start….ya!! finally finish all the paper and now im a freeman haha…well, lets talk bout papers ya! Hm…everybody’s answer seems to be different thou…was quite worried when I saw esther’s expression when shes browsing through the question paper…well enough…when I flipped and read through OMG I finally noe y…and I looked at her with a painful smile :p but anyway the paper was not whar I expected…so shall leave it to fate. Yesterday, I had a conversation about life and how we live in with Jean. It was supposed to be a casual conversation but it turned to be serious one. Haha..i remember her phrase, “never let anyone to dictate you on what you should do. Believe in yourself. Take advice with good judgement. We only live once anyway.” I wish I’m that strong. My life has always been indirectly dictated by another. The things that I do don’t mean that I want to do. Ironically, I always had my mind changed by external influence somehow for the things that I want to do. In the end, I’m lost. I always have this big knot in my head that I’m trying to untie. I should be more persistent, stubborn and strong. Sometime I wish I could turn back the time so that I can undo the things I shouldn’t have done and to do the things that I should have. Life is so funny sometimes. It’s like a jigsaw puzzle. As I recall the past events of my life, sometimes I wish some things happens now instead of the past or maybe not. Well, if I’m always asking myself those “if” question or telling myself “ I should have..” or “ I shouldn’t have…”, life wont be so interesting isn’t it? Nothing is perfect in this world. I think I’m a little bit crazy in the head. It’s probably due to the pressure I’m getting directly or indirectly and consciously or unconsciously from work, studies and bla..bla..bla.. I’m telling you work and study is not a good combination at all. But I’ve chosen this path an I have to go on till the end unless something better pops up along the way. There are so many thoughts running through my mind but I cannot make out of it. I wish there’s someone who can just give me one tight slap and ask me to WAKE UP!! Ya…if you can promise me what those though means provided if I can tell you what those thoughts are. I miss those times when I have nothing to worry about as if nothing matters to me! Those time when I was so free-spirited anf healthy and happy. Oh screw that! I’ll probably try to make it happen now instead of missing them. Well, enough. Lets talk bout others.
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to Yanie ( And also sing for “P”someone who bday on feb also)
Happy birthday to you
Ok!! going take a rest 1st coz later have to attend candy wedding party.
++FaNcy_FraNnie++
