Yr05
Have never felt so lonely in my life until a few minutes ago. i was about sleep but suddenly all the emptiness hit me like it was an antimatter. i felt something is mising but not empty. this time everything is missing. as if im floating in the air and jus waiting for me to slam hard on the concrete floor due to the sudden pull of gravity.
10days ago my friend got married. i just watched and something unfolded in front me. i cant imagine who i should spend my life with. seeing my friend get married taught me that love conquers everything even the darkest qualities of your partner. i am not saying that my friend and his wife has a very dark secret but the acceptance they have given to each other is quite magical. for 9 years they have stayed together before they said their "i do"s. it felt like just a formalization of eternal happiness for them.
loving someone for me is not hard. it is quite a mystery of what i really am. i can somehow conclude that i am the fusion of what i was brought up to be and who i want to be. it is difficult for me to stay insane because two conscience is telling me what to do.
2005 christmas, another one more bad christmas for me!! aside from god and my buddies, i got no one to share my christmas. haiz…i had expect too much im not blaming anyone because this is what god planned and i accept it. it has been a very evenful year (2005) so many things had happen both good and bad….all the best in yr06
you may see me smile but im….
ChEeRz_FaNcY_FraNn
December 21st, 2005 at 1:48 am
Hm…that a little hars live isn’t it?well that is the live…just like everybody sayed “live is mystery”well here some advice from me… seing your friend getting maried is just psrt of live..where by is human live circle.so,if feel sad or something…find a person to express your feeling,for example your parent.they may have solution to your problem or anything.maybe is a little shy to talk about it but at least try it.Beside that your closes friend or partner.them also hve some solution.lastly,your self.i mean talk to your self.dont think its crazy but think it as a positive matter.well that all i could think of,hope it can help you a lot.
-Franklin_Ank3- (n_n)
December 22nd, 2005 at 4:49 am
if u think about what u miss in life… you have nothing…
if u think about what u have in life… you own everything….